It feels strange coming in this way. I haven't reconciled a path forward with social media outlets due to my own personal laziness and the anxiety social media provokes. My anxiety is not content derived. It's provoked by the disruptive nature of scrolling on the y-axis in what feels endless—in what is endless, right?—I'm pretty sure both directions on the axis are infinite—back to the problem—this endlessness disrupts my ability to sit in one place, staring weirdly at nothing while I make shit up in my head. Right now I could be engaging with Instagram or Twitter. We all know this is what I should be doing. It is what we as human beings should all be doing. Pawning our wares and sharing our lives with every motherfucker on the planet, if possible. Sorry for the profanity. There will be coarse language on my blog, because I am the god of my blog, and because I think profane thoughts regularly. I want to reach out to the world, but I need to do it in a way that has zero advertisements and doesn't involve anyone else but me and my thoughts. Therein lies the crux of the problem. That's not what social media is about. You have to be interested in what other people are doing, and you have to care whether or not they care about what you're doing. I get stuck here.
Meanwhile, I wrote a novel. It's the weirdest thing that ever happened to me. The book got signed by an agency. I believe it will get published. The agency that signed me is big and reputable. I'm going wherever it takes me. About three years ago, before the pandemic, I became stricken with writing. I say stricken because I mean stricken. I'm writing this blog at midnight when I should be sleeping—or promoting myself and staying relevant on social media—or moisturizing—but instead I'm writing about writing the book. That annoys me, so it must be annoying as hell to you, dear reader. I'll have to start lining up recording or mixing gigs for the spring. I took some time off to finish a draft of the book, which I have done, but now I have to get my ass back into the studio and start generating income. Maybe my book will sell and I'll get some cash money. Maybe it won't.
I'll try this again tomorrow. Goodnight billions of potential readers.